When you least expect it, God smiles on you....

It's been a really rough time lately. I've been caught up in something that I thought I wanted and I was fighting for, only to end up more hurt and bruised than if I had let it go to begin with. But that's ok. I got away from the situation. However, the damage that it did to my mind and my heart and my self-esteem are something that even I, in all my jadedness, didn't see coming. But that's ok, too. Because things get better when you least expect it.

I began to pray before I went to lunch, out of desperation as usual, more out of habit because I was to the point where I didn't think God was hearing me anymore. The funny thing is, I've discovered that when I'm at my lowest point is when I'm not trying to control anything. When I'm at my lowest point is when I think that God is so far from me and I'm talking to Him out of habit. When I'm at my lowest point is when God is listening.

Today something happened at lunch that not only showed me that God is listening and watching out for me, it reaffirmed the difficult and painful decision that I made last night is the right thing to do, but it gave me a much needed mini-boost of self-esteem and hope for my future.

And once again, life is good ;-)