The path that I've recently found myself on is not an old one for me. I've begun this journey several times in the past. I've simply allowed myself to get sidetracked by life. That's ok though. It's never too late to start the journey again. This journey that I'm on is to discover self-love. I must have put it out in the Universe that I needed a change, because right before my eyes the rug was pulled out from under me, and the path that I was on ceased to exist. I didn't think I was ready, but I guess God knew otherwise.
In order to begin to love myself, I need to learn to forgive. Not only do I need to forgive others, but I need to forgive myself. This is hard, at least for me it is. It seems like I would thrive on the anger and resentment that I held. The drama in my life, the chaos of a dysfunctional relationship - not just romantic but family relationships as well. I harbored anger towards my parents for things they've done in my past. I've harbored anger towards my brother for things he's done in the past. Towards my ex-husband, towards my kids, and towards My Love.
I have to let go of the negativity of the past. It's the past. It can't be changed, it can't be undone. I must forgive them. I must forgive myself for my role in the negativity. I must forgive myself for harboring anger and resentment towards them. And I must forgive myself for things that I have done to them as well.
I can't waive a magic wand and everything will be forgiven. All I can do is release the negative energy that I've held on to. The first step to love is healing. And the first step to healing is forgiveness.
Today is a brand new day. A fresh start.
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