Thursday, November 15, 2007

Your opinion of me is none of my business

That’s right. Your opinion of me is none of my business, and my opinion of you is none of your business. The more I say it, the better I feel.

I used to be the type of person who would tell anyone and everyone about themselves. What a witch I was. Can you imagine how many people I hurt with my vocal and blunt opinions? Especially the people I love?

And then one day I got my karma. That’s right. Someone that I was close to began to tell me his opinions of me and I didn’t like it. It began with “you’re controlling” and went to “you’re a whore” and ended up with “you’re psycho and need to be in a nuthouse”. Yes, I reaped what I sowed. I began to see myself from the position that I had put other people in. The cruel criticism and character assassinations that I was on the receiving end of caused me to view myself in a very unhealthy manner. I was depressed. I couldn’t find anything good about myself. I began to believe that something was wrong with me. I believed that I was a horrible person and that this person was right in everything he said to me.

But I was wrong. It was only his opinion. And his opinion is none of my business. Let people think what they want of me. They can’t change how I view myself: as a fabulous mother, lover, girlfriend, child and friend.

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