With my surgery in exactly two weeks, I've become completely and totally stressed out...even more than I normally am. After a jam packed weekend of putting together furniture and scrubbing the baseboards, short tempered outbursts toward anyone who got in my way, and a meltdown on the phone with my BF last night, I decided this morning to focus on the things that make me happy so I don't drive everyone in my life crazy during the next two weeks.
1. Angel Girl brought her grades up. Good for her. That means that I won't find any F's on her report card this grading period.
2. T-Man was my helper all weekend. I drug him shopping Saturday and Sunday. We had furniture laid out on the floor much of the weekend, the living room was in disarray, and I had him helping me move furniture and hand me tools all weekend. He was a great sport, and a great helper.
3. My BF let me have a meltdown on the phone last night and didn't try to shut me up or force me to quit crying. I know I was being completely emotional. I know I'm freaking out and he knows I'm freaking out and when I freak out about one thing I freak out about everything. I'm grateful that he LISTENED to me.
4. I finally got to eat my leftover salmon for lunch. I know it's silly, but my BF cooked dinner for us the other night, and I've been looking forward to the leftovers ever since, and today I finally got to eat them. Yes, they were super yummy.
5. My attorneys are going to be taken care of the week that I'm out. This was a huge worry for me. All 3 of them really depend on me, and it seems like over the past four months they've been depending on me even more and giving me a lot more responsibility, and leaving them in the hands of someone else for a week has had me completely stressed out. I talk to one of the powers that be, and she gave me an extension for one of the deadlines for them until I'm back in the office. That's a huge thing because now they don't have to worry about someone else doing that project and complaining or screwing it up.
Ok, those are the 5 things that make me happy today. I'm still totally emotional and completely overwhelmed, but I get to see My Vics this weekend. In two weeks I'll have to rely on my BF and my friends, and that's going to be hard for me because I'm used to doing things my way, myself. But it'll be ok. Things will fall into place. Maybe I'll learn to relax and then won't be so high strung. Or at least I'll be able to enjoy the company of those that I love.
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